“Out of Sight, Out of Mind” by Debra Hadraba for BraveHeart Women- Honor Your Truth #111

by Debra Hadraba on June 27, 2010 · 0 Comments
in The "Is it True?" Series

Welcome to Honor Your Truth The “Is It True?” Series Episode One Hundred Eleven “Out of Sight, Out of Mind”

Maybe the mind, but not the heart.

I haven’t been to the Oregon Coast in over a decade, but I can still feel the pounding of the waves against the rocks. My grandmother has been gone for much longer than that, yet I can still hear her laugh. I don’t think about these things every day, but I feel them always and forever in my heart. Each day holds treasures I will carry with me if I am present enough to notice them.

I can dream about the future but it cannot retain anything. When I find myself waiting for my “real life” to start, I wake myself up and realize it is here now. I can be impatient and until I am no longer sitting around waiting, I am uncomfortable and feel like something is missing. If I accept that I am right where I am meant to be, life becomes much more fun.

I enjoy my job…much more than I used to, now that I am present for it. I also know that this too shall pass. When I move on from here, I will miss it. The more present I am the more memories I will have stored up to reflect upon when I do.

Seasonal work can put you in a mindset of always waiting….waiting for something to end or for something to start. Talk to anyone who does it. However, I have learned a thing or two… things others may consider obvious, but for me, it took a while. I learned that my life has many facets, twists and turns, ups and downs and it is all part of who I am. I am always in motion and therefore I am never really stuck anywhere.

While managing a restaurant has never been a passion of mine, it still fills a large amount of my time. Less and less, but it is still one of the things that I do. I make a living yet it isn’t necessarily living. Real living is done by following my heart and my heart yearns. It is never at rest no matter how at peace I feel. It is always beating and I move now to the rhythm of it. If I don’t, I feel anxious… not unlike the feeling of wanting to dance but no one else is on the dance floor. I must grab someone or get up alone… standing there is not an option if I am to feel any peace and happiness.

So I dance while I am here. I work everyday, all day, but I laugh hard too. I am training a staff that comes from all over the world. One turns to me in a panic, “It’s in the chicken, it’s in the chicken.” I stare perplexed…ahhhh – translated “It’s in the kitchen, it’s in the kitchen” Or “Can you fish, you need to fish” –translated “Can you fix this, you need to fix this” And FYI, we have 1000 nights of dressing. For as impatient as I say I am, I have an immense amount of patience training a new staff in every season.

I choose where I go and what I do next. I am not stuck. I am constantly in motion. Knowing this… I am free. I am free to follow my heart wherever it leads. Once I realized I could leave, it made it much easier to stay. “Enjoy it while you can” takes on a deeper meaning. I work for new owners and I can feel the shift as it does… shift. I Honor My Truth!

Debra Hadraba

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